Sporty said she looked fat here, unbelievable!
(She's the one with her hands on her shoulders)

"BRITNEY SPEARS' comeback album BLACKOUT has been named album of the year by French radio station NRJ. Well hot damn! Britney Spears is back to winning awards again? That is some pretty hot shizz if you ask me. I've said it before and I'll say it again -- despite the fact that Britney Spears has made a mega mess of her life in recent months but her new album is freakin' hot as hell. I wouldn’t be surprised if she ended up winning more awards ... in spite of herself. " - Trent

I couldn't agree any lesser, I just love her dance theme to this album.

Apparently last weekend, I didn't do much school work. No, really. I only dedicated my last few hours of Sunday night to do a write up for the individual parts of my project. This was also due to limited resources. Well, there was school work on Saturday though; a visit to the museum! Exciting; we had these gadgets as our companions. After which we did the norms; discussion and work delegations, over late lunch. The mother did not cook, so the family and the kids went for dinner at Al-Azhar. I must say the service there has tremendously improved. Generally, the servers were friendlier and they were promt in taking our orders. And oh, they took advantage of technoolgy and reap their profits(it's always packed; that explains good food) in adding computerised cashiers. The father mentioned this time around there's now way they can cheat us with their mental calculation. HAHA.

At one time, he'll 'kelapak' (slap) me with whatever is in his hands. At another, he'll nuzzle with my hair. He has an eccentric way of showering we with tender loving care. Whatever, he still has my Adidas bag. I don't want it come true, like what's mine is his. Like how it was with my DS. Oh DS.

Unexpectedly, mother didn't cook on Sunday and lazy father decided to bum at home, which meant I gotta take the effort of getting my own meal. You see? It's not surprising anymore that on weekends, there'll be nothing in the kitchen. From just a simple lunch, Neighbour Love and I went for a retail theraphy at the pasar malam and then headed to Woodlands Checkpoint for some treasure hunting. Ok silly, but I bought 8 different types of stickers from Spongebob to Transformers. Effing cheap, 4 for $1 sia. "You come here, your favourite. Buy some more, buy for me also." HAHA. Later in the night, I tagged to Expo with the kid's family. Happening la, all the makciks(aunties) after the jemputan kahwin(wedding invitations) were there to shop and eat. And what a rip off, a plate of mee rebus costed me $3.50!

On a random note, many of my friends are into the Korean fever. Not for me though, I only like Hero and Yunho from Dongbanshinki(sp?) because they're gorgoeus. Shallow, I know. I still like Britney, Arctic Monkeys. And of coz, Spice Girls. -__-

Labels: Afro, please lend me Britney's karaoke vcd.

I've fallen sick all so suddenly. The nose's like a pipe and I wish I could stick my hand in my mouth just to scratch the throat. Disgusting I know, but it's that bad. I blamed the Tom Yam cup noodle I had earlier, but then again, it must've been school that's draining me dry. Talking about cup noodle, the girls and I, we're badly broke. Still, I've the anxiety to irritate them with my sing-a-longs. Maroon 5 baby, I can't wait to see them; Adam Levine especially, in their sexy suit and tie get up. You know I have an appetite for sexy things. :)

Though technically there's no class tomorrow, I still gotta head down to school for projects. Like whatelse, my projects are never ending, seriously! Then there's an event to attend after that, which apparently I got this feeling I'll sleep through it. Dear friends, let's all sail this last journey smoothly. After which, we'll all break loose for some fun under the sun. And oh, moon.

2 reasons why I'm not so happy with the mother:

1. I've complained to some of you, that some of my clothes went missing. Apparently the costlier ones. And since the mother is the one who takes care of this (I know, what a spoilt lazy brat), I assumed she's the culprit in misplacing them. So yesterday, I stumbled upon my safetypin-at-tits Volcom tee while clearing mywadrobe. I dug deeper and voila my missing-in-action Levi's button shirt. However, I was estatic for awhile only for I found blue prints on that shirt of mine! And you know what, I'm thinking the mother was guilty of it that she chucked the shirt so that I could not find it.

2. I admit I can be very messy at times, but I do like to see things in order. Like how the alignments in the report must be perfect; I can be that retarded. And I take notice if things don't seem the way it should be. Like this morning as I was getting ready, I saw that my Miss Sixty perfume was not on the correct shelving. That's it! Who else but the mother who sprayed some on herself; before she head out to her weekend exercise. C'monla mother, exercise sia. Not that I'm stingy or so, at least put it right back where it was from. Then at least I wouldn't know. This is not the first time, she once wore my Papillios to the market. -__-

I thought I've always been the brave yaya one, all the time glued to edge of my seat, no need to hide my big eyes behind my small hands and no shrieking; when it comes to horror movies. But today, the tables turned around. And oh, it was a naked ghost sia.

Labels: It wasn't lame afterall.

I've never felt so much animosity in me. I'm fanning the flames of hostility and aggression already. I wondered the reasons so much, as to how it boiled down to this. I've never liked the thought of despising something or even someone so much, I mean we only live once, why the negativity right?

I tried giving myself the benefit of the doubt, that I'm proned to whatever that has taken course. Now, it's not the case anymore.

The sight of you, and hearing others mention your name gave me such irritation. Look how much you've disgust me. And I'm not surprised if it stays the same way. I've taken every effort to change the light in how we both see things, but somehow it's to no avail. Sad to say, not a chance to compromise and accommodate. Being funny and playful is allright once in awhile, squabbling makes relations closer but taking away my respect; simply explained you didn't see the line drawn, at all.

At the end of the day, there are some things I just can't help but talk about. Some things I just don't want to hear, and some things I say because I can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what I say, they're what I do. Some things I say coz there's no other choice, some things I keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves. I deny that I'm tired, I deny that I'm scared, I deny how badly I want to succeed. But most importantly, I deny that I'm in denial.

Don't you agree? We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth right in front of our faces. No matter how hard you fight it, you fall. And it's scary as hell; except there's an upside to freefalling. It's the chance you give your family and friends to catch you.

Well, I don't need to deny any longer. I strongly believe I've seen the truth, and no one else can change that fact. It's ok to be selfish, to do things what other people think you might not. I'm not saying this for no apparent reason; though some of it unknown, I'm just following my heart. Life has never been easy; it's a crazy world out there, but I know I'll make it through. Even if it takes me to lose another. I've people calling me dumb and stupid, for not doing the things I should've done. Well, you can continue calling me that. But let me get this clear, no, it's not a white flag raised, it's just that I'd rather place my attention and concern somewhere else.

Sometimes, I do get tired living in this fast lane and I'd seek refuge in listening to music and having long talks over my favourite Starbucks. People break down sometimes or many times, but I don't want to be broken down so badly. You've ruined everything, even that little space I've kept for you in my car-crashed heart.



I know people, what an overwhelming emotional ground breaking entry! Syiok, I've never been this transparent when writing. Not to worry, the breakdown's over. I'm cursing and swearing with Shima, over the ATeam duty tomorrow. To report at 7am, KNN.

Yesterday's rush was real scary, and I tell myself it shouldn't happen again. The thought of 6hrs straight in the lab with no food/drink, makes me feel like a bear hibernating. But later when it was all over, we all turned moronic. Stupid antics; you can act sexy while smelling your armpits. HAHA.


I think Saturday's a lazy day for the mother, she has not been cooking! And I have to resort to chewing assorted nuts for breakfast today. Can't blame her much, I'm not always home on Saturdays. Same for today, I need a tiny break from school. :)


And oh, Sentosa was my group's chosen topic for a certan project again. The last time I went to Sentosa to do observation, I ended up having a blast! Typical sia, like never go Sentosa before. But this time around, I wasn't entice to take the rides again. Instead, we managed to walk in a few metres into Fort Siloso. No ticket, so a few metres will do.

On another note, being neither old nor young, my light dimmed and I kept praying and falling back on memories, kept reminiscing what it'd be like to stay 16 or younger. And it's damn retarded to be thinking such coz I know I'll do better planning my future. So, as i forget the past, remain hopeful of future, with happily ever after(s).

Labels: Panpad.

School is slowly taking it's toll on me. Deadlines are nearing and projects are piling. I don't look forward to weekends as much as before, knowing that they will be dedicated to project work. Still, I try to do something out of school context; like simple coffee or late night supper with the Neighbour Love. Today's a Monday, and for the first time my Spice Girls and I didn't have Get Fat day. Usually, we will lunch out for good fatty food. And I foresee in weeks to come, there won't be any too. :(

Oh, in case you're wondering how my New Year went, it was fantastic! The last week of December was one that had me all smiles, kinda like love is all around. I couldn't ask for anything more, really. On top of that, was the gifts. And I love love mine. Reality check, it's 2008 now.

So yesterday we gave a birthday surprise over at Nir's place, how exciting! The beam she had on her face, was priceless. I realise I never fail to make plans and celebrate the birthdays of these special friends of mine. I mean afterall, it is a special day and the thought of being remembered by your friends, that's something priceless as well.

As much I as want to blog, this period is not helping a bit.


Then I go questioning myself, is it really true what you're saying. Times when you're not even sure to belief yourself or the person you're speaking to. It's unbelievable, you're truly unbelievable. I told myself not to be bothered about it, but at the end day I don't understand why I am bothered still. Finally I realised, there's hope. It's something that we humans cling on to dearly, even when our feets are getting further from the ground. We just can't let go.