Let's make a run tonight.

Joshua: Btw sayang(told you he's a ladies' man), do you know who Taufik is? Your best friend's friend. My bunkmate siol!(and he has the lost mat in him)
Me: Yea I do! What a small world. My good friend is CY's bunkmate, now you! How did he found out about me?
Joshua: I opened his cupboard, and saw your best friend's picture(Joshua you're fucking kepo, Taufik you're fucking gay). And I was like - do you know Dayana Bohan(you had to use my full name)?

Very Smack That

Saturday, September 27 / 22:37

Because whenever a girl vents her anger or concern that might sound harsh, usually she'll sound like the ultimate bitch.
How like that?

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So much of me wanting to be Wonderwoman, damn, think I'll look like that. Stubby legs and a cup of coffee in my hands.

Happy Pills!

Thursday, September 25 / 20:23

"I'm sure you wouldn't let your bear go hungry right? Now, close your eyes and think of your fav food. Take the heart rub it on your tummy, and then pass it onto your bear's tummy. This way it's always happy instead of hungry!"

Party and more parties, that's how work's gonna be like this coming weekend. Due to the road closure, Suntec has diverted most of it's parties to us. I'm just hoping the kids are a bunch of clowns, so dancing to Hokey Pokey wouldn't be such a bore.

Bill A Bare; that was how the foreign operator(from India to be exact) billed the receipt to my store yesterday. It was histerical, I remember repeating Build A Bear to him 3 times at least, and look at the outcome.

I'm aimlessly surfing the net now, and chatting on MSN, super random, very talking cock. Within that same convo box, I've been called a bugger thrice(read: Shima).

Arrrrrrrrgh, Britney's new single. Delayed for a week.

And I just watched Travis's Selfish Jean on YouTube twice already, I smiled like a gundu. It's just so funny. Frankly, I'm just bored and there's no one around to entertain me, so thus, I pathetically have to do that myself.

I need my asswipe Joshua!

Who Stole The Cookie From The Cookie Jar?

Sunday, September 21 / 23:20

Friday was good food day with the gang besides them boys who's stuck in their bunks, dinner at Makansutra's Gluttons Bay and dessert at Haagen Dazs. I love anything and everything chocolate and my precise choice for icecream will be something that's brown. I'll go "Hmmm..." every time I got a scoop down my throat, and giving Shachin a stare that was meant to kill. I mean, he hasn't had a scoop of icecream since young due to his asthma. What a deprived childhood, I know. But today, I felt a tinge of guilt in making him turn green earlier. He was admitted to ER due to an asthma attack. You're in our prayers now. :)

Talking about them boys who's stuck in their bunks, I received text messages that made me grin from ear to ear.

"I miss wanking as much as I miss you." I was like, yes Joshie baby I miss you too, but then again, he must have sent that same text to a million other girls. LOL. But your presence was felt even if you're not around, as you forgot to take with you your latecoming-lying act, and someone else picked it up.

"I'm home! Free tonight?" Though you're extremely annoying, you still made me feel special. You avoided the scrumptous spread at home just to break fast with me, awww. Va va va, Amaa Ille, Apaa Ille!

Right about now, I'm catching up with best friend who's over in Aussie. Like every other girl, we can talk about anything under the sun. So many things to say, seems like it'll take us forever to share. Funny how we still make fun of her even when she's not around. See Nadia, we all miss you. :)

Do We Really Want The Truth Even If We Demand For It?

/ 12:37

The thing about bangs, sometimes curtains come uninvited.

Simply said, can you live life with reasons unknown? I once gave up in knowing what's there to know, I built a wall around my heart and never let it fall apart. Some people put up walls not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to tear it down. I fanned the flames of hostility at you which makes life simpler then. I remember saying, sometimes we've got to let go before ever being able to hold onto something we can call real. And sometimes what we let go is what we trully want.

Occasionally, people say what they wanna do, but they don't end up doing it(I became that person as I threw my words all around). That's the choice they chose which will lead to another route, no matter if it's a wrong move or a right one. I know you tried to come around to repiece back whatever that was broken, but. Bad things only happen because we deserve it or because it is there to teach us a lesson or because it will teach us to become a stronger person. I'm eager and impatient for a reason, I don't wanna pretend.

Perhaps we're both just trying too hard to work on something that was never meant to be. Perhaps I am just too scarred to start with, maybe I am. Perhaps we should have let what we had as it is and not confuse ourselves with what was suppose to be and what we want it to be. Because for once, what we want it to be does not mean it will be. Or perhaps I’m too blind to see that what should matter most is that we're in this together and that at this moment, we have each other, in whatever ways we see each other as, in whatever messed up situation we've placed each other in.

Seriously, I don't know where this is going. All I know is that life's short, but it's beautiful. We've got to realise that we only have one shot at it and we've got to make the best out of it. I don't wanna hold what I wanna do today coz when tomorrow comes, I'll end up pushing it further and further till I eventually don't get the chance to do it at all. And it seems like I'm relying on my blog too much nowadays.

Aside the negativity, today's my final day at Suntec, will be back at Vivo baby! It was an enriching experience taking the role as a leader for a week, ensuring the store operations and staff welfare are taken care of. I've always seen myself as a leader, really, but this time around it wasn't as easy as I thought. I've always sound too nice when giving instructions, and I'm afraid that will make others think I'm an easy person to work with, not that I wanna be difficult. I mean, the fact that I'm a young leader working around very young people, it's a challenge. Because first thing's first, it's all about respect.

We Can Get Down Like There's No One Around

Tuesday, September 16 / 19:47

There's a reason why I have close to 50 posters of her and I can sing to all the songs of her Blackout album, it's coz I love Britney! Just like her I like Starbucks too, woohoo! She'll be releasing her new album; Circus, on her birthday 2 December and the first single to be released 22 September. Blackout was such an awesome dance album and I'm glad she'll be working with the same people that did her previous albums. Move it, it's Britney bitch!

I'm Not Afraid To Shake My Ass And Misbehave

Sunday, September 14 / 23:40

What an ass, I wasn't being myself at work today(partyly coz I slept too much and my body ached). On top of that, I remembered to pack home Coldplay CD in my bag but not my handphone, double ass. Not to worry, my well spent weekend was enough to diminish whatever negativity that's surrounding me now; I had a blast on both Friday and Saturday. Thank you God for blessing me with happy pills. :)

When Boys Turn To Men

Friday, September 12 / 19:58

Recently I had an overdose of male species, day after day I had to bear their undying need to bring us girls down. Even sitting together and eating a decent dinner was a chore, havoc sia. It was good though coz this week was dedicated to them boys who had made a difference. They're annoying, horny, egoistic, occasionally intellgient, extra lame; they're every girl's favourite bunch of ass wipes. ILY'all, remember it's an offence to wank.

If You Wait Too Long For The Perfect Moment, The Perfect Moment Will Just Pass You

Friday, September 5 / 13:20

I'm glad I told you to spit everything out, and that I set aside my ego to pick up the phone and give you a call. Look where we are now, loving and especially caring for each other just the same like before. So maybe we all haven't been truthful enough. Maybe what we know is that the truth scares us so much that we refuse to come clean with it, but truth stays true no matter what, and sometimes when comes the day when we realise that we have no other choice but to face the truth, more damage have already been done. We all know how everyone don't mean to hurt, but most of the time... the more we try not to, we just do. Whose to blame?

I'm stubborn and strong headed, yes, but that doesn't mean I won't give in. I just need a reason to do so.

No one can shut me up so easily for I'm outspoken and I can retaliate. But yesterday night. Simply said, I'm guilty as charged. I'm good at talking but I can't handle all kinds of conversations well, thus the presence of an awkward silence is when I'm having my thoughts processed. It's not because whatever's said goes into one ear and goes out the other. For one night I listened more than I spoke. Things don't just work out by nature, something certainly have to be done. I've learnt. And I apologise for letting myself be so affected by too many little distractions till to a point that I forget that. I don't want to ask for anything more. I like the way we are now and I'm simply thankful.

"Some friendships are meant to go further than it is. But."

Copy Cat Kiss The Rat

Thursday, September 4 / 13:20

Irritatingly, Jen is looking like me and vice versa. Recently, she did her hair, she had bangs and she coloured it red-ish. Just yesterday, we were wearing green tees, exact same Mango berms and Brazilian Havaianas. It's disgustingly cute, whatever. I still love playing with her.

But I Don't Like Figuring Out What Goes Through Your Head

Tuesday, September 2 / 00:52

We want to remind ourselves that we are in control of our emotions and know for a fact that it is true but no matter how much we feel that we're in power, we will be smacked right in the face, by nothing else but the reality. Because the reality is, we'll feel the things we've clearly told ourselves to not feel, we'll love even when loving hurts our soul, we will disobey all the rules we have set upon ourselves, and when a chance is thrown in our way to express these things that have been kept inside for far too long, nothing and I mean nothing at all can stop us. I've told myself before that the saddest thing to feel is not to feel disappointed but it is to feel nothing at all. But circumstances have made me feel the latter. Just maybe, I've lost all control.

Party Like A Rockstar

Monday, September 1 / 23:35

(This picture's really freaky. We looked extra old, kinda like attending a company dinner or something. Damn, I don't wanna grow up.)

(No, that Ang Moh dude wasn't lost whatsoever. He's Raphael, from German. He spent his night hanging out with a bunch of maybe-sometimes-can-be-lame-ass bunch of Asian kids.)

Saturday night was over at Khalsa to celebrate Shachin's 21st. Theme: Hollywood/Bollywood; I had this drive to dress like Vicki B(but the thought of wearing big shades into an enclosed room, nah), in the end I was clad in a CatGirl-look-a-like outfit. Fizah was like a sexy siren in red, while Joshua was looking preppy in his pink shirt and skinny tie. Everyone looked their best, the saris Shachin's family wore were so pretty and glam. I must say, Indian/Hindi parties is one party no one should missed; dancing's their pastime! Everybody was high on booze, babes and disco lights. We boogied the night away to bangra hits, occasionally resting as it was rather tiring. Afterwhich, from MOS to Mama's Carribean we chilled the night away.

And Shima was the illegal immigrant hanging out with us that night.

This boy purposely wanted me to squeeze his balls dry by dragging me to join him in his pit of embarassment. You just had to share the burden of being sabotaged to dance in front of a crowd with me. I was flabbergasted you called for me, instead of your fav call girl. He's off to serve the nation in 2 weeeks time, and boy, I'll miss you. He said that he'll text me every night, and that when he's in the jungle he'll let me hear the sight and sounds. Gee, life's a bore without you kinky one. You were my Brandon Flowers that night. Wank boy, wank. I love you.

It's time to meet with the other fav boys before they're off too.